Written 09/11/2026 ??/?? Just clarifying we're not just talking about romantic love here.

I'd say just run away. Sharing instagram reels about love, or making gifts for someone was never love to me. You're sharing someone else's thoughts and creation with someone. That makes me rather jealous. I'd rather recreate a thing from scratch if I wanna give it to someone, but not everyone is employed enough to afford that, amirite? I'm not, atleast. But I've not created the money I use? I've just earned it. I've just borrowed it but fuck it, maybe it's not that deep? You know no one's gonna love you for who you are though? They're too busy thinking no one's gonna love them for who they are, or maybe it's not that deep to them or maybe they just had a shit life and can't even feel straight. Can't blame a person for that. It is, I believe now atleast, okay to leave someone like that. If you ask me now what love is, I will probably tell you it's not that deep because you don't talk about these things. Sometimes I do, maybe if you're lucky but I guess it truly isn't that deep or maybe I've become a part of the herd. If you find yourself "relating" to the title, just sing "She feels like the real thing, She tastes like the real, My fake plastic love", one day, you're gonna die anyways.

i just don't wanna pretend that X thing does not matter to me, is that alright?